A Mother’s Intuition…

amayaWhat is it about women that once they become mother’s they get these super powers in every aspect of life?  It’s almost as if having  children gives us a 6th sense.  What I am referring to is a mother’s intuition.  I had my first-born almost 7 years ago.  She was my first miracle baby.  Within minutes of having my daughter I felt this need to protect her.  It was a very overwhelming feeling.   I constantly watched her making sure her little chest would move up and down to breathe, place my ear next to her mouth to hear her soft gentle puffs of air.  Yes, I will admit, I even held a mirror under her nose to make sure she was breathing.  My every movement mimicked hers.  The day she was born we were one.  I now had my heart on the outside of me and it was more fragile and vulnerable than ever.

She was two weeks old when I admitted her to the hospital.  She was throwing up more than she was eating and had become dehydrated.  She was only in the hospital for two days and they were the longest two days EVER!  The doctors couldn’t quite figure out why she had been throwing up and after 48 hrs in the hospital they released us.  I watched her like a hawk.  The vomiting had subsided but now she was spitting up more than usual.  EVERYONE told me this was normal.  I however got my first glimpse of what “a mother’s intuition” was.   Something inside me told me this wasn’t right.  One night I woke up from my sleep, turned to look at her and she was turning blue in her lips.  She had spit up in her sleep and was choking on it.  I took her in to be seen and she was diagnosed with severe acid reflux.  When the medicines that were prescribed to her didn’t work, I pushed the doctors for more test to be done.  Everything from blood work, to body scans to seeing G.I. Specialist.  We finally had answers and were given the proper treatment which better her.

Around the age of 1 years old when we experience the wonderful world of introducing more new foods I noticed that when I would introduce eggs to her that she would become very uncomfortable and sleepy.  Many people told me to brush it off that it was nothing and here came my mother’s intuition again.  I started logging the times and days that she would have eggs and her symptoms the day before her scheduled appointment I introduced fish to her lips swelled up.  The next day I asked and persisted that she be given a blood test for allergies and also the RAST test and sure enough just what I suspected she was allergic to fish and eggs and would require and epi-pen.

My mother’s intuition has always been on alert and even my husband is amazed at how accurate these intuitions are.  Five weeks ago my mother’s intuition started creeping up on me when my 6-year-old daughter started complaining of stomach pains.  I brushed it off thinking it was just a tummy ache but the complaints kept coming.  The following week her tummy pains got worse and she would curl up into a little ball.  I figured it was a stomach bug that had been going around.  Her tummy pains would come and go at the most sporadic times and having recently changed healthcare providers I began searching for a new PHC physician.  The third week rolls around and the tummy pains are now happening at least twice a week and having other symptoms as well.  We see the doctor and he thinks that it is just constipation, I push for an X-Ray to be sure and the x-ray comes out clear.  A few days later we end up in the children’s hospital emergency room with her symptoms worsening.  All she was given was something to control her nausea, no test were done and I was not happy about it.  I eliminated things from her diet, gave her teas, kept with the medicines and she did get better but my mother’s intuition would not let me rest.  I recall speaking to my mother and telling her that I had this gut feeling that it was something more and that the doctors were not seeing it.

This past Monday I took my son to get a physical and took advantage of the fact that I was at the doctor and requested that my daughter have blood work done. After a few minutes of my charm the doctor wrote up the orders. My mothers intuition was right, something was wrong.  This morning I received a phone call from her doctor and he told me that her white blood cells were high, her liver was weak and she tested high for eosinophils.  He said he was “mind boggled” as he was not expecting these results.  He later called me to tell me we would need more blood work done, a stool sample and that my daughter would be tested for Celiac Disease. Not only was this going on but yesterday I also had a doctors visit and there are some things of concern going on with me as well which will be getting followed up on next week.  All of this while planning our move to Japan.  When it rains it pours right?!

Today has been a very stressful and emotional roller coaster kind of day.  We are just 15 days away from moving to Japan and so many things are going on.  My priority will ALWAYS be my children.  To all the mommies that read this blog, go with your mothers intuition always.  Push to get things checked out… 99.9% of the time our mother’s intuition is right.

I would like to thank all the people who I contacted this morning who have started prayer chains for my daughter and I and my sanity.  Your love and text messages have been overwhelming (in a good way) and I appreciate and thank each one of you from the bottom of my heart.  I have not been answering phone calls today as it’s just been one of those days but please know I am hearing your voice mails.

I am a courageous fighter, I have been through so much and whatever life throws at me and my daughter we will both be ready for a good fight.  We are strong individually and together we are invincible.  God is in control.

A&VPhoto taken by the wonderful Angie Schutt see here work at www.angieschuttphotography.com


Merry Christmas!!!!


Santa visited our house and I wanted to take the time to wish each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas.  I hope your day was filled with lots of love and laughter.  For me, it was bittersweet.  It will be the last Christmas that I get to spend with all my family for the next two years.  This week just flew by.  It’s hard to believe that one week from tomorrow my family and I will be moving out of our first home and moving into a hotel on base.  It’s even more unimaginable that once we move into the hotel, 10 days later,  we will be on our way to the airport saying our “see you laters” to our family and getting on a plane to fly to Okinawa.

A HUGE part of me just wants to stop time and enjoy my family and friends as much as I can, especially my mama.  I wish I could just pack her up and take her with me.  (We did offer her to go and live with us but she declined.  I cant be selfish, I have 5 other siblings) but still it would have been nice.  The next 17 days are going to go by faster than I would like.  Tomorrow we pack out suitcases that we will be living out of until mid-February.  On Friday our second shipment gets picked up and on the second of January our last and final shipment will be picked out and we will move out of our house officially. 

I can not but into words all the emotions I am feeling even if I tried to.  I would like to thank all my friends and family who have sent us cards, memory books, pictures and who have just dropped off meals just because.  I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  For the mommies of my daughters friends and her Girl Scout troop, thank you so much for making her feel special with the letters, pictures and packages.  You have know idea how special she feels and yes she gets emotional and cries sometimes (she gets that from me).  To those that I have not been able to see my apologies, time has just been slipping away and I hope to be able to see you all if just for a few minutes.

Until Next Time, Sweet Dreams.

It’s happening…

As I prepare for our family to move half way across the world things start to get serious.  I wrote up my last will and testament last week and it really brought things into perspective.  I never knew I would get so emotional about writing my will.  Why did I decide to do this now? Well I have had one since I was  21 years old and since then I have gotten married and had two children.  With this trip and flying over seas (I hate flying by the way) I felt I should just update it.  As a matter of fact I think everyone should have one.  After experiencing my nephews death last year we had so many questions of how things should be done.  A Last Will and Testament sorta leaves answers for any questions that may arise in your death so why not be prepared and lessen your families grief by giving them well thought out answers. 

On the other hand my princess has been sick for almost a month now and doctors can not seem to find out what is wrong with her.  I turned to my Hispanic roots tonight after seeing her in pain and I had my husband and mom take my daughter to a sobadora.  A sobadora is a healing masseuse and let me tell you my munchkin felt good after todays visit.  I will keep a close eye on her in the following days and I would appreciate any and all prayers for her body to be restored back to health.

As the days get closer to our departure from the states we prepare for the movers to come and pack up our house next week.  It has been really difficult to decide what to pack, what to leave and what to throw away.  I never realized how much of a pack rat I am.  We received a package from Okinawa today from our sponsor.  He sent us a guide to Okinawa filled with any and everything that we may want to know and explore about living on the island.  I must say that we were blessed with the most amazing sponsor.  On January 2 we will be checking in to the Navy Lodge in Coronado while our house gets prepped for the new tenants and our final shipment gets packed.  That’s when we, as a family will get our first glimpse of what living in a hotel will be like and living out of a suitcase.  We are lucky enough to get a hotel right in front of a beach 😉  A little stay-cation before our two year vacation. 

This weekend will be a fun and busy weekend as it will be the last weekend that I will have ALL my family together before my move.  I have family coming from Nevada and some from up North.  We will also be taking family pictures and celebrating my sons 4th birthday.  After this weekend it will be phone calls and a ton of skyping.  I am sad to know I will not see my family for two years but am excited about the adventure that we are about to embark on.  It’s all in Gods plan.


We are down to the final 4 weeks before we jump on a plane and fly half way across the world to Japan.  So many emotions going on from everyone its a bit overwhelming.  So here is a quick update on what has been going on.  We are set to leave January 12, 2014.  We officially have a P.O. Box address in Japan.  (If you are family or friend please feel free to message me for the address).  We have set up our shipping dates, yes dates.  Three different movers for three different dates on three different weeks with the first set of movers showing up sometime next week (Eeeek!)  Other than that it’s a lot of paper work, a lot of appointments to different offices and doctors appointments to make sure we are all in good health and a lot of organizing and throwing things away.

It’s been difficult to juggle the move with life and family and friends.  A HUGE part of me just wants to hang out with my family and friends and relax but my conscience keeps reminding me that there are things that need to get done.  The fears and anxieties are at an all time high.  My emotions have been a huge up and down roller coaster.  So in the midst of chaos I decided to get some “normalcy” back into my life.  We went out and bought a Christmas tree.tree

A bittersweet experience it was to go out and have the kids pick out their Christmas Tree.  As we decorated the tree we realized that this will be the last Christmas that we will have in this house.  The house that we made a home, where many memories were made.  Our first home.  I do know that we will make many memories in Japan.  Memories that many families may dream to have and I look forward to this experience.

In the middle of all this “normal chaos” I received a package.  My medal for finishing the Silver Strand Half Marathon had finally arrived. medal

So my friends and family what is next?  I don’t quite have the answer to that but I do know that I want to make as many memories as I possibly can with all my friends and family before I leave.

Japan bound in 29 days!!!!